Self-Love The Nude Way
- Rosie Mae
- Jun 16, 2019
- 2 min read
My newly purchased 2 piece bathing suit made me feel exposed… more so than the nudists around me. I felt vulnerable, scared, and excited to be at Wilbur Hot Springs.
My bucket list adventure... go topless or nude in a hot spring. But, could I do it? Could I find the courage to let go of insecurities and present myself to strangers?
Could I take off the little articles of clothing that represented my 2-piece? I wasn't sure.
My body has gone through quite a bit of changes in my 34 years of life. I used to be a size 0 at 95 pounds dealing with anorexia for most of my adolescent years. I have had two cesarean pregnancies, one I almost died from. And, I was overweight at 175 pounds with depression.
It has taken me a VERY long time to try and feel comfortable in my own skin. I fight with acceptance of self-love because of doubt. I've struggled, like most. Being here at Wilbur with nudists all around, this is my cry for a dramatic change with self-love. I am here for a reason.
I rose from the lounge chair and stepped into the middle hot spring flume. I was greeted by a woman... naked, hairy, and floating. It was very overwhelming. Everyone can't help but take a glance at the surrounding bodies... and me.
The warmth of the water immediately drifted my mind into complete nothingness. My skin became smooth as silk and my body at an ease. No pain. All the worries of life fade. You literally think of nothing. And, you heal. I rose from the waters and sat in the lounge chair, knees up with the sun scorching my back.
I felt at ease with myself for the first time. I have never been so in love... in love with everything about myself. I unhooked the bikini and threw it on the ground. As I laid back with the sun on my bare skin, I was appreciated of the body God has created for me. Self-love formed within.
As I looked around, there was no need to fear on lookers with their remarks or facial expressions. The level of confidence is inviting, embracing, and accepting. Every single nude person is one with nature. Exposure to the world, strangers, and myself was an open door to that acceptance; my body flaws are more beautiful than the strive for perfection.
We are all afraid of nakedness; even in front of our significant others. We fear being judged. We even fear nakedness in front of ourselves. To take the bikini top off was the first time I didn't let fear win.
I stretched my arms over my head, took a deep breath, arched my back, and let out a large sigh. The wrinkly skins, rolls, piercings, dangling of body parts, bouncing, sitting, relaxing, reading, swimming, standing, quietness all surrounding as I laid in the sun nude. You hear birds chirping, the spring of water moving making relaxing music, and the self-insecurities floating away.
What a great way to spend a Saturday. One with nature and one with myself.
XO - R. Mae
Wilbur Hot Springs - Clarksburg, Ca // https://wilburhotsprings.com/
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